Random Post of Randomness

Today has been crazy. Let me just say that. Anyways I have a new poemish type thing. Honestly it's kind of weird so don't judge it...

The song. Oh no.
I have to change it.
But it's too late.
Tears. Rolling down my cheeks.
Why? It's unexplainable.
Love. The only word I can muster.
The only explanation for my tears.
I close my eyes.
To try to get the tears to stop.
But I can't.
As soon as I hear the song start.
They start.
I've trained my dying, hurting brain.
But I have to fight the tears.
I try to board them up in my dead eyes.
But they just keep coming.
I can't. I can't do this.
I run. And keep running.
I don't know where I'm going.
I just run.
Out of the house .
Out of the couldesac.
Out of the neighborhood.
Out of the city.
Out of my mind.
Until I can't run anymore.
I turn, to go back.
But he followed me.
I feel his arms around me.
I feel their warmth.
I'm done fighting.
Now I'm going to stay.
And fight.
Forever.
In this war called life.


So that's the poemish thing I wrote today. It's amazing what I can do on a sucky day.

yooooo

guys, i've been listening to old taylor swift a lot lately and man you can learn some life lessons from her songs. like in white horse she says, "i'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well" and that's just so important! you do not under any circumstances have to be friends with someone who treats you like crap. that's not real or good friendship.
(this post is so random lol i'm sorry)

What's up my dudes??

Write things down people. honestly, i have started and failed so many times to keep a journal until my bff showed me that it doesnt have to be like a traditional journal. add pictures, change the layout, give it a funny cover, make it you. and i know it turns into just one more thing you have to do but youre gonna regret it when you cant remember that really cool quote you heard last week , or that cute boys name that you chatted with at the grocery store. or even that dumb mountain you hiked with your ex, because even though they might not be that great, i bet that the mountain was. keeping ideas in writing will help you remember them and give you memories to look back on. you will have a lot more regret if you dont write anything down than if you read one less chapter in your book that night.

We Fail

Wow we are already starting to slack off on this blog! I'm so sorry. Currently my sister is in the hospital. But for a good thing. She's having her first child and I couldn't be anymore excited!! She's going to be a preemie baby so she's gonna be small but that is just going to make me love that little girl even more than I already do. I can't wait to meet the sweet girl that kicked me in the face twice already and she hasn't even been born yet. My life has been so hectic and so out of control that sometimes I just have to take a step back and relax. So many new things have opened up to me unexpectedly and one of them in particular I can't get out of my head. Any ways that's all for now! Bye!

slacker aka me

well hey guys so I haven't keeping up on this sorry! life is just crazy and school does things to you lol. But softball season is starting up soon and I couldn't be excited to start as a junior on the varsity team:)))) hope everyone is hanging in there for Monday tomorrow💪

life update i guess.

hello friends.
no one has posted in a while and the blog is looking a little empty so here i am.
nothing super exciting is happening in my life at the moment. i mostly just go to school and take naps and do homework.
oh, i'm doing better in school so far (mostly because i've actually been doing math homework yay go me)
i don't really have anything else to say but i hope everyone's life is going well :)

be happy, apologize, and forgive.

3 life lessons of the past couple weeks:

numero uno. be happy! be unapologetically freaking happy. don't sacrifice your happiness for someone elses. it isn't worth it. do what makes you happy, even if others might judge you for it.

numero dos. apologize. realize that you aren't always right. realize that being right is 100% not worth it if it's going to cost you an important friendship.

numero tres. forgive. people are gonna hurt you and make you mad. but forgiving them is gonna make you happier (see number one). and forgive yourself when you do something wrong. you aren't perfect and neither is anyone else.

love you guys :)

oops?

i kinda totally forgot about this blog for a little bit there. mostly because one of my new years resolutions has been to write everyday, so i created my own blog (again... i've had like 3 over the years). that way i don't clog up this blog with some of my pointless posts. but, if you want, you can click here to read my blog. it's nothing special, but i enjoy writing on it.
anyway, i hope everyone's 2017 is going well so far :)

Hello Again

I totally forgot about this thing for like a week oops, but I'm back so hello friends. i have this pet peeve thing i guess you could call it, friendship. if you're going to be my friend then be my friend. i don't play this i'm not sire but i'm trying game. You're either in or you're not and if you cant decide or don't make an effort, i'm out. I wont slam the door in your face, i'm not that kind of person, but i will walk through the door and wait for you to follow me. I guess that sounds kind of selfish, but when it comes from one of your best friends, i shouldn't have to worry about them closing the door themselves. I have had that happen before and i don't want to feel it again. I guess what i'm trying to say is, if you're gonna be someones friend, be a friend, not a passerby, because people get connected more than you realize and even though you may think that they don't care, or they're happy without you, they could be seriously hurting. so be honest and be kind and be a friend.

Should i?

I have the chance to enter a poem into a poetry contest at school and I don't know if I should or not. It has to be approved by my english teacher and my poems are personal and I don't know how I would feel if she knew those things about me. I have a couple from my past I could choose or I could write a complete new poem. I guess we'll see what happens.

Who knows what the future holds.

Why am I so lucky?

i have great friends wow. i am so happy for the people in my life and all the sacrifices they are willing to make for me. surround yourself with good people everybody, it is oh so worth it and makes life oh so much better. also, old  friends from your past can still be great and bring back happy memories, heck they can even become new old friends, and that is a great feeling everybody.

Excuses

I think I'm going to use this blog as an excuse to share some of my poetry.

Sure it isn't fair,
Tell me one thing that is.
A life without war,
A world without sin.
Simple is as simple does,
That's why I'm so elaborate.
Who knows what the future holds,
Cause I know I won't have it.

Reflection thing??

Hi. i usually dont do stuff like this and this probably wont be anything that i want it to be so hang in there with me.

i often was ashamed of a lot of the things that i did in my life and hid them from others. 2016 was the year of hiding who i was if im honest. i was afraid of everything and i hated change, heck, i stuck with a guy who treated me like dirt because i didnt want to have to tell people something about me was different. i kept my grades up and didnt let anyone know how much i struggled to get through. i couldnt share my feelings with anybody because i was worried they would look at me different.

this year is gonna be different. im gonna try new things, im gonna make a change, and im gonna shake my life up. I am free and single, i have good friends by my side, and im at the prime of my life. lets just hope my parents will help me while i take this step in my life towards independence and life

im gonna use this as a kind of journal or tracker as to my progress... maybe it will even help to keep me on track and hold to my new goals.

so heres to new things, new ideas, new goals, a new year...lets get this party started!

-J

PS im gonna write with perfect spelling, but incorrect punctuation and probably little to no capitalization because that just the way i am.

Well!?

So far my 2017 has been great and terrible at the same time. I stayed up all night with my friends to watch the sunset and I had a great time. But then it was overcast so you couldn't even see it. Then I fell asleep at 10 in the morning on Sunday and woke up at 6 in the morning Monday. The. I did some cleaning since I was home alone and then I just got yelled at for not washing clothes from the trip I just took. Like Dad did you see my room on the fact that the dishwasher got emptied and refilled?? Either way I just want this day to be over.

bring it on

2016 was an interesting year, to say the least. a lot happened. a lot of it was unexpected.

for example, i chopped all my hair off.
i had my heart broken for the first time.
i watched some sad movies.
i snuck out for the first time.
i became comfortable driving. i even learned to make it relaxing instead of terrifying.
i lost some friends.
i was lonely for a long time.
i made more friends, and realized that i need to surround myself with people who can make me better.
i became a huge history nerd.
i developed my music taste.
i turned 16.
i finished my sophomore year without failing algebra 2 or honors chemistry.
i ate a lot of in n out, chick fil a, and canes.
i watched some sunsets.
i dyed my hair purple. and then i chopped it again.
i got my ears pierced.
i went to texas and walked around in the ridiculous humidity.
i went to an art museum.
i got locked in a not working shower (while also covered in jello.)
i swam in a freezing lake, just because.
i ate some ice cream.
i saw twenty one pilots in concert.
i lost some more friends.
i gained some even better friends.
i moved for the first time since i was two years old.
i asked a boy to a school dance (he said yes).
i realized i deserved more than what i was giving myself.
i read a lot of books.
i took a lot of selfies.
i ate a lot of really good food.
i hurt people.
i apologized.
i was hurt by people.
i forgave them.
2016 was great, and horrible, and exciting, and mundane.
2016 was one of the best and worst years.
bring it on, 2017. lets see if you can top it.

The First Official Blog Post!!

To kick off the new year of 2017 we are starting a blog to show our adventures and struggles of the next year. We are starting this year with a clean slate.

K-Here's to a new chapter,
A life we left behind.
Mistakes were made,
Enemies we fought.
And now I've been saved,
By the faith inside of me,
I'll put you in the past,
So this new year can come to pass.

L- "Just because you can't experience everything doesn't mean you shouldn't experience anything." I'm hoping that this year I can come out of my shell and experience everything the world has to offer me.

S- this has been one rollercoaster of a year and so much has changed me to the person I am now but holy shoot am i grateful for where i am now and all the things that this new year has to offer. just so ready to live and love life to the fullest:)


J- lol I have no clue what I'm doing with myself right now, but I am extremely determined to get myself together and smile a lot more this coming year. Hopefully I can share some of that with you;)

Happy New Year!